Good piece of news: Abdominal ultra sound was clean! No issues with the tummy organs at all! Yay!
I am both nervous and pumped to do this surgery. I want it dealt with. Done. Out. Finito. And yet I am sooooo freakin scared to do this! Never had surgery in my life, never broken a bone, never needed more than 2 stitches in my pinky finger and certainly never had to think about recovering from anything this traumatic. I've said my "goodbyes" to my natural boob... really realizing how much I've taken for granted what I had. How nice it was to have had it... I am amazed with what the plastic surgeons can do these days though... I am told I will have some nice ones this time next year. I may not be able to have any feeling there and they will not be the same, but at least something will be there.
Keeping up with my "staying in the present moment" idea, I am working on not getting too ahead of myself. Trying to shut up those negative voices in my head that tell me I should be worrying or looking for problems that could arise. An amazing person with whom I speak to on a regular weekly basis has really helped me center myself and find ways to stop that voice. Problems may happen, they may occur, but as I sit here now typing this... there are no problems. I am just simply writing, with my new little pixie haircut, my bags all packed, my cat Tao sitting at my side, I can hear my Mum making something in the kitchen and Mike is in the shower. In this moment, I am safe, without any problems to deal with. And when I get on the ferry tonight and I sit there with my book, there will be no problems to fix. The problems just exist in the mind... So silly it is when you think of it.
Reminding myself of all of this up to the moment that I arrive at the hosptial will be a challenge, but I am up for it. I need it. Without that sense of balance and calm I would be lost.
And without the huge amount of support I am getting from everyone I would not be as positive as I am today! So I just want to say thanks to everyone for their support... you all rock!
Ready to do this!